We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Happy Hour for Sad People

by dba iNDiE ViGiL

supported by
/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

1.
today i'm 23 and i'm never free i'm always workin' workin' workin' but i've got a ukulele now i've learned a couple songs they tell me i'm ok but to me it sounds a little wrong well i guess it's just a matter of opinion i'm livin' in the kinda town where everybody knows what cigarettes i smoke and where i always know who'll laugh at my jokes and who won't so i am happy for now i'm livin' in the kinda way i go through most a pack a day though i'd like to quit without my nicotine fix i catch me sayin' things i can't unsay and i must admit it's kinda nice to shit at least twice a day fuck it
2.
Every Day 02:04
3.
you are a dead man you are a dead man with a dead heart and two dead lips that say nothing true and nothing new though sometimes they say "i love you" i'm not quite sure what you think it'll do for a dead man and your dead eyes see right through me but your dead hands can't quite find the strength to reach me from that hole in the ground where you lie sleeping dreaming screaming crying over dead plans at least i'll never have to run away from a dead man i'll be running circles 'round the grave of a dead man all my life who knew it's such fun to play with a dead man
4.
5.
some days i feel like i could never be who i need to be and other days i'm jumpin' off the walls i can't afford this back and forth this trip around the carousel though i know it's still turnin' when i'm gone but oh i'm runnin' out and oh i'm goin' south but tomorrow i'll turn around last week i thought the universe would never be the same again though now it seems it's stood fast all along if i can't find the keys to start my car today then how will i ever find happiness at all? but oh i'm runnin' out and oh i'm goin' south but tomorrow i'll turn around some days i feel like i could never be who i need to be though now i don't know who i am at all
6.
7.
i was cleanin' the blood off the light switch in the bathroom thinkin' of all the vodka and the pills this past week we've killed a gallon at least between us yet somehow in the end we're thirsting still because love is not enough no it's not enough oh love is not enough it's something it just can't be all we need i was cleanin' the blood off the door frame to the front porch thinkin' of all those cigarettes we smoked this past week we've killed a carton at least between us it's a miracle somehow we haven't choked but i know love is not enough no it's not enough oh love is not enough it's something it just can't be all we need i was scrubbin' the blood off the floorboards in the kitchen kneelin' thinkin' of all the things you said to me before it happened and all i could think i should've said was i love you i love you but i know it still wouldn't change a thing because love is not enough no it's not enough oh love is not enough it's something it just can't be all we need no i said love is not enough no it's not enough oh love is not enough it's something it just can't be all we need
8.
Laura 03:03
9.
Happy Ending 06:09
once upon a time there was a girl her hair was long and black with so ever slight a curl she'd say she was half mexican though you'd never know it from her skin i guess you could say she was pretty white for a half mexican that girl learned pretty early meth was bad it'd remind her of those first few years she didn't have her dad but he's back now with her loving mother her favorite sister's now her favorite brother i guess you could say she had a pretty typical american childhood but she'd dream about the day she could look in the mirror and say someday soon you'll have your happy ending you'll have someone here who loves you more than anything or anyone you'll have some money tucked away you'll live to fight another day you'll raise your head up from a soft pillow every morning once upon a time there was a boy his lips formed this half smile that most people would call coy his heart worked so hard as he slept you could see his veins pulse in his neck i'm not exactly sure how healthy that is but i suppose it's charming that boy had no real family or home he spent some years in a rotting house with his estranged little brother alone but when his dad came back a drunken prick our boy defended himself with an ice pick i guess you could call it dramatic irony that it went straight through his liver but he'd dream about the day he could look in the mirror and say someday soon you'll have your happy ending you'll have someone here who loves you more than anything or anyone you'll have some money tucked away you'll live to fight another day you'll raise your head up from a soft pillow every morning once upon a time that special girl fell so hard in love with that special boy it forever changed her world their financial need was so ardent they went in together on an apartment also some other weird random guy but that's not really important well things may have been rocky for a while but she never tired of makin' him make that cocky-assed half smile people change all of the time as long as they lived together everything would be fine not exactly some magical fairy tale but i suppose it's something he thought he'd finally found a way to look her in the eyes and say someday soon you'll have your happy ending you'll have someone here who loves you more than anything or anyone you'll have some money tucked away you'll live to fight another day you'll raise your head up from a soft pillow every morning once upon a time that special girl couldn't rationalize making that boy the center of her world she got pissed when he got stoned and he got pissed when she drank alone i mean i know nobody's perfect and all that shit but you gotta make progress so when that special boy went m.i.a. so-called professionals showed up to take our special girl away suddenly she found her vision clouded by all the red flags she had previously doubted like the fact that he once cooked meth with her ex yeah that's pretty fucked up it just get harder as you age to look in the mirror and say day after day someday you will have your happy ending you'll have someone here who loves you more than anything or anyone you'll have some money tucked away you'll live to fight another day you'll raise your head up from a soft pillow every morning you simply have to find a way to look in the mirror and say day after day someday you will have your happy ending you'll have someone here who loves you more than anything or anyone you'll have some money tucked away you'll live to fight another day you'll raise your head up from a soft pillow every morning
10.
Meaningless 01:55
11.
Bliss Road 03:00
never thought i'd say i miss you after all you said to me never thought i would feel sorry for who i turned out to be but when i try to be my best you always catch me at my worst and those thorns we stuck beneath our skin are always gonna hurt i thought for all the things you gave up maybe pride could be my first though i'm takin' bliss road southbound with the top down i can't tell my mother i'm comin' home thought i'd buy a little comfort in dogeared books and dvds thought i'd find myself a lover but i couldn't feel a thing took a crowbar to the couch and threw the wreckage by the road ripped up the bible from the freezer scattered pages on the floor well if you'd seen me do it could you still believe that i have grown? though i'm takin' bliss road southbound with the top down i won't tell my mother i'm comin' home this crowded bar gets pretty lonely i wanna get back on the streets paved with years of good intentions though they're rough and incomplete i left behind the tinderbox of everything i own pretty soon a spark will catch those ragged ill-fitting clothes and i'm racing for the day we can forgive all that we owe i'm takin' bliss road southbound with the top down gonna tell my mother i'm comin' home
12.
13.
last night i heard you talkin' couldn't make out what you said i shoulda kept on walkin' but i listened in instead 'cause i wanted to know wouldn't you want to know? it turns out everybody wants to know what's goin' on in my bed but none of them seems to know what's goin' wrong with my head but i'd like to know well wouldn't you like to know? last night you were just another petal on the stem but now i'm feeling plucky so you might get lucky or you might just wind up dead or maybe both you never know with me my bet's on both if you wanna go with me just trust me leave me be 'cause it's prob'ly for the best last night i heard you talkin' couldn't make out what you said i shoulda kept on walkin' but i listened in instead well now i know now i fuckin' know it turns out everybody wants to know what's goin' on in my bed but none of them seems to know what's goin' wrong with my head so please somebody help me out my hands are turnin' red just don't get too close 'cause when this blows it's prob'ly for the best if you're not near because i never forgive myself for all these things i haven't done just get the gun out of my hands and fuckin' run
14.
15.
i've accepted that tonight it's so cold my fingertips will die i've accepted that tomorrow i'll walk more than i'll sleep but the restless man inside my head won't let me close my eyes for long he just taps my skull with his pocket watch and says you're doing it all wrong well i tried taking steps forward but the wind chill held me back so i tried to just get over it but now everything is numb and these corporate motherfuckers need some time to get their feet wet so in the meantime i'll have to decide which bills to pay this month the desperate man inside my head always urges me to glance up on the chance of catching moon beams through the windows of my eyes but these clouds so black and pendulous keep swallowing the shadows and the feckless man inside my head plots how and when i'll go i try to pin the heavens up above me every night but when i wake they're scattered all around me and all my dreams are riddled with the flames of falling stars but a wish's another name for blasphemy i used to have close friends 'til i spent all my time obsessing over stupid petty shit i'd long forgot but not forgave i would alienate anyone who was weak enough to love me now they're waiting for their chance to finally piss upon my grave and yet all i want from this short life is for someone here to miss me my name uttered in good company oh maybe once a year but the tactless man inside my head asks, "who'd even know you're gone? do you wanna fuckin' sober up or spend your final days alone?" i've so much love it spills out from my aching bleeding mouth and fills the trash can clutched between my knees for all the pricks and hypocrites who plague my waking hours i hope that unlike me they'll be redeemed i took a walk to clear my thoughts of all the anxious voices but the reckless man inside my head was still beckoning me home suddenly a light so pure and bright froze me right where i was standing i was straddling the railroad tracks when i heard that whistle blow
16.
17.
waking up too late again in another place you shouldn't have been and the bottle in front of you won't stop spinnin' strugglin' to stand walkin' down the hall with the palms of your hands flat against the wall and the marks on the door don't mean nothin' at all press your tongue to the backs of all of your teeth stick your hands in your pockets for wallet and keys but you're looking for a new recipe for disaster 'cause this one got old

credits

released July 13, 2016

Dedicated to Abi and Alicia, who gave me a ukulele for my 23rd birthday.

Odd tracks written by Joshua Zeitler.

All tracks performed by Joshua Zeitler (with a little more help from Alicia on track 12).

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

dba iNDiE ViGiL Alma, Michigan

contact / help

Contact dba iNDiE ViGiL

Streaming and
Download help

Report this album or account

If you like dba iNDiE ViGiL, you may also like: